If I were being honest in a way that scares me…

… I’d tell you that I have felt so invisible in the past few months in my business. That my mindset took a confidence hit in a way it hasn’t in years, and it had nothing to do with my business. That my new photos were a way of returning to myself, and to an old version of me in my biz who could do anything she set her mind (and heart) to.

If I were being honest in a way that scares me, I’d tell you that I feel so happy in so many places in my life, with waves of anxiety in others. (Hand on heart, deep breath in, pen to paper, move, tea, talk.)

If I were being honest in a way that scares me, I’d tell you that even though I trust that everything is always working out for me, doesn’t mean I never have fears, or worries, or wonder “what if…” or “but why…”

I’d tell you that I sometimes I feel like I don’t know how to make the next decision to get to where I want to be, and there are days when doubt I’m doing enough, or wonder if I’m focused enough.

I’d tell you that I used to feel so much more organised (before kids), and that running a home and two businesses (coaching, makeup) is a lot, but that I find so much satisfaction in the flow I’ve created.

I’d tell you that I wanted to do a specific 5min tapping video every day for a week but I haven’t done it in three days.

I’d tell you that sometimes, I want to stop doing everything and just sit and write, and write, and write.

The thing is, even when life is life-ing, and I feel stretched so thin, and business isn’t just about business anymore, and the dishwasher needs to be unpacked, I’m still so hopeful.

Even with my very human fears. Even with my mother’s guilt. Even with my entrepreneurial risk-taking, gimme-more-of-that-creative-high vibes.

I’m endlessly hopeful that I’m always being guided to more of what lights me up.

I’m endlessly hopeful that I’m walking the path to more joy.

I’m endlessly hopeful that there’s sparkle and magic everywhere. Everywhere.

I’m endlessly hopeful that even the hardest day can get turned around with a deep breath in, an energy cleared, a perspective shifted.

And I’m endlessly hopeful that even when being honest with myself scares me a little, it ends in more of the good stuff.

“Or something better” energy isn’t about being high vibe.

It’s about being hopeful even when the truth scares you, even when you can’t see the path, even when you can’t see the outcome.

And it’s being brave enough to look at the truth anyway (to find it, to unpack it, to hold it close), knowing you can shift the pain, the stress, the worry, and the overwhelm, by returning to your power. Your heart. Your deepest energy.

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Love,