In Eat, Pray, Love, Elizabeth Gilbert writes about sobbing on the bathroom floor before making a life-changing decision.

For me, it’s usually the kitchen floor.

And it’s not something that happens only before a life-changing decision moment.

It’s kind of a “every moment before the next expansion” thing.

I’ve come to recognise it, even though it’s so bloody uncomfortable.

(The emotional discomfort, not just the cold kitten floor.)

But in the strangest way, I know now what it means.

And look, I’m going to sound like ChatGPT here but I swear this is all me: crying on the kitchen floor doesn’t mean anything has gone wrong.

(You’re not broken, you’re healing—that kinda vibe.)

Except, for reals.

It happened to me recently. I found myself sliding my back down the tall pantry doors until I softly hit the floor. Elbows on my knees, hands over my eyes, a big cry escaping my mouth. I sat there for ages. I cried until my chest felt lighter and my mascara was stinging my eyes. (Gah!)

Deep breaths, long sighs, and big feelings, tinged with discomfort and fear.

Discomfort because I was crying to process big, big change and expansion. But also big, big joy. Fear because, well, change and expansion. And joy.

Every level we shift, leap or sometimes crawl into brings uncertainty, even amongst all the beauty.

It doesn’t matter how much you want the change, or how excited you are for it.

We simply cannot see the entire picture yet and sometimes fear tries to pull joy back.

I don’t need to agree to that plan. And that’s what my tears were reminding me of.

I’m walking through an entirely new season of my life; and sometimes, fear is my companion on the journey.

Not always, and never in a way that stops me from continuing to walk on. But sometimes fear says “Hey!” and in response, my nervous system needs a minute.

And in that moment, when I give it to myself, I remind myself that the tears mean something old has been released, so something new can arrive. (Or land, without leaving.)

✨ I remind myself that in a thousand and one ways, I’ve done this before and I can do this again.

✨ I remind myself that everything is always working out for me.

✨ I breathe in the “or something better” energy that guides my whole life.

And then I treat myself to a little chocolate because, I’m an adult, and I can.

You also have big things to do, and next levels to move into.

If fear is feeling bigger than your bravery; if you’re also sometimes on the kitchen floor; and if you can feel big expansion is brewing but can’t see the “how”, nothing’s gone wrong.

And I’m here to help you shift it all.

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Love,